Tuesday, May 28, 2013


Dear Me,

It's hard to satisfy everyone no?
People.. people.. *sigh*

I need to re-evaluate myself.
I have a habit, a very BAD habit.
I always want to jaga hati orang like really really. 
So I simpan, simpan, and then forget.
Then POOOOFS! The final showdown! 
I ended up creating the worst disappointment to others when I no longer can stop myself from jaga their hati.

I really need to stop this.

'not so' Sincere,
Poor Me.

Wednesday, May 22, 2013

Job Era !


Good News Alertt.....
Got myself a job !! Yeay!! Allah is great !
It was unexpected at first when I first got called for an interview,
but if you put it this way, if it's meant to be yours, no matter what, it shall be yours.
Alhamdulillah. So thankful and happy.
I will be starting on 3rd June.
2 weeks of orientation at PETRONAS Leadership Centre, Bangi.
Then I'll be off with my new life in Kerteh, Terengganu for the next I don't know how many years. 
Kerteh is just an hour and a half ride from Kuantan. So, no worries. (trying to keep myself positive)

Oh, dream came true... 
Please pray that I'll be a good employee. :)

So for those of you who are still waiting for job opportunities, be patient, your time will come. Okay?
And for those who have already get your offer or getting yourself start into something, congratulations!! 
Wishing all of you lovelies, the best in everything.
Remember, no matter who you are, never forget your roots, dignity and integrity.

Lots of love.

During my recent graduation day with the classmates. 

Saturday, March 16, 2013


Betul cakap mommy,
kalau nak bercinta, biar sampai dah kerja, jangan buang masa blablabla etc.

as a teenager, mesti nak tentang, mommy tak faham true love, mommy lain yaya lain, yaya bukan macam mommy...blablabla etc.

Up till this point, I UNDERSTAND.
and maybe, I'll say the same thing to my sons and daughters, and I'm gonna expect the same reply they'll give to me as what I had told my mom.

Masa skolah, all you want is a person who cares for you, dah pandai bawak kereta (itu dah kira macho sangat and dreams came true), stick with you all day and all night, hantar bunga, hantar notes, hantar candy time dalam kelas, tetibe budak budak kelab penyayang, ketuk pintu kelas, sebut nama kite, sbb dapat candy dari seseorg. :) aww so sweet!

Masa kat uni, all you want is a person who is on the right track, charismatic, good looking and could take care of you when you're away from the family. Occasionally suprises you with flowers on your special days, hantar biskut, pandai gaul dengan kawan kawan, dapat bawak jalan jalan luar uni etc.

Bila dah habis belajar, you'll realised, that's not exactly JUST what you need in a man. You don't mind he's not spending his day and night just for you. No need for non stop text messaging, even you yourself don't want that anymore. Now the reality begins, you want a person who could take care of you for the rest of your life, support you emotionally and financially, able to marry you, able to provide you a reasonably sweet wedding, have a good and stable job, a car, some investment in the making etc.

Nanti dah kahwin, lain pulak ceritanya...

Things are getting more rational and not just about your feelings.
Your expectation increase.
You will never feel you have enough.
You will feel tired. Tired of going through all the above just to get where you want to be now.
Only if you knew.
Only if you knew.

Some are lucky to have all 3 stages with the same person.
Some may not.
Some still working through it alone.
Some may be going through the stages together.
Some may be smart enough to not go through any of the above and straight to find their secured happiness.

Monday, March 4, 2013

Just Sharing

If any of you don't know, I own an online brand called MeetSuri .
Releasing new stocks today.
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Wednesday, February 20, 2013


I was not born in a golden spoon.
I don't have a fairy tale life.
I don't buy fancy clothes and dine in expensive cafes and post it on instagram.
It's not that I'm humble,
It's not that  I don't want to show off,
It's because I do not have that kind of money to waste and spend.
I'm just ordinary.
You don't drop by my blog to just go 'ooohhh' and 'ahhhhh' about my extravagant stories.
All  I can share are life experiences and positive words that I could think of, and I prefer for it to remain that way as long as I can.
Even when I have zillions of money to waste, and I have a perfect story of a fairy tale to share.

Today, I have collect my strength to start writing a resume but Ya Allah, susahnya nak start.
It's not that I don't have the idea on what to right, but I just don't feel like it.
Maybe I need my break, my holiday, after a long 5 and a half year of studies.
Unfortunately, my wants and needs are getting larger and the list just can't stop and I really need to do something to change this lifestyle I'm having!
Malu nak still rely on both my parents.

So, marilah kita sama sama start tulis an extraordinary resume that employers just can 't say no to :) starting.....



Wednesday, February 13, 2013

Proud Aunt!

I'm sincerely a proud aunt to

Aria Camellia binti Faisal
Fareed Zubayr bin Fairul

daughter and son of both my brothers and their wife masing2. Kang ingat kawen dua pulak kan? :)

Growing up with them since I was little, now all grown up, being a father lagi, how time flies... and makes me want to have my own too. *sobs* 
one day, insyaAllah...
I'm sure they'll be a wonderful and responsible father, just like ours.
Thank you to both my sister in law too for being the strongest mother while delivering their babies. I get to 'hear' Fareed being born, and oh, it wasn't an easy one. *goosebumps*

Love my family...
....and looking forward for more babies. :)